Day 2...

Day 2 is supposed to be about nicknames.... Not sure what I'm supposed to write so I'll just say whatever comes to mind. Thats always fun : )

1. Nay or NayNay <~~~ most used nickname by my family & close friends. My middle name is Renée. That's where it comes from.
2. Jay <~~~ originally given to me by my co-worker Sarah because none of the customers ever got my name right. I've been called (& answered to) Janine, Denise, Jenny, Janice & more. It's Ja'Nice. Say it with me.... Jah-niece! Lol
3. Flyygirljay or flyymommyjay <~~~ the 1st has been my screen name forever. In my freshman year of college, I was dubbed "fly girl" because I ALWAYS dressed up & got extra cute for class. This came from having a dress code in high school. I added the Jay/mommy part later.
4. Auntie!!! <~~~ one of my favorite names... I love being an auntie & I absolutely love my nephew & niece!!!
5. Baby girl <~~~ only one person calls me this & he is the only one that can. That is all!
6. Lastly, and this is probably the most important nickname of all... MAMA!!! The first time I heard my son say that, my heart melted. He won't say it anymore. He just laughs when I try to get him to say it. Smh.



~Jay

Day 1... AGAIN

So they deleted the topic list of the 30 Day Blog I was posting from. Guess it was pretty old... Anyhoo, I found a new one & was smart enough to take a screen shot this time. Ha! For Day 1, I'm supposed to introduce myself, give you a recent photo & 15 facts. So, here goes nothing...

My name is Ja'Nice.

1. I'm a mother.... Hence the blog name flyymommyjay.
2. I'm 5'7... Mostly legs.
3. I work in a pharmacy.
4. I LOVE to write/talk about everything.... Anything really.
5. I cut my hair into a fade (Caesar cut) 4 months ago. Very liberating!!
6. I'm learning to be more patient.
7. I'm extremely nonchalant.
8. My anger is rare & never lasts very long but when I'm angry... I'm VERY angry.
9. I'm almost always smiling/laughing.
10. I've learned to love the people that love me back & to pray for the ones that don't.
11. I'm sometimes loyal to undeserving people but if I changed that... I'd change me. Not happening!
12. I believe in the Golden Rule & live by it daily... You do dirt, you get dirt!!
13. My life should be a broadway musical.
14. I have a bucket list & am slowly but surely marking things off.
15. Last, but not least.... I am truly in a place of contentment in my life. No matter what tests I endure, my faith cannot be shaken.



~Jay

Something You Hope To Do In Life

Hmmm, there's a lot that I want to do & I can't just pick ONE! I have started making my bucket list so I'll give you all as many as I can think of now.

In life I hope to:

Learn to sew. Learn how to play the piano. Learn Spanish!! Visit Europe, specifically France & Italy. Meet Derek Jeter/Mariah Carey. Be content with myself & my life. Experience reciprocated, non-platonic love. Give reciprocated, non-platonic love. Dance in the rain. Go skinny-dipping. Write a book. Publish said book. Audition for a reality show. Go see a Broadway show. Go to a Cowboys Superbowl game. Be the best mother possible. That is all.


~Jay

Something You Have To Forgive Someone Else For

I've let go & let God in every aspect of my life... Good & bad. So refer to my last blog about forgiveness.


~Jay

Something You Have To Forgive Yourself For

I was just going to skip this topic because there's nothing currently that I feel I need to forgive myself for. But I decided to explain why... Please know that I'm not without sin. Not without blemish in any way. Actually up until very recently, I was carrying around a lot of guilt, hurt, pain... But as I said in the previous blog entry, I've grown a lot in the past couple of years. I know that in order to be forgiven, you have to ask for it from God & from the people that you've wronged. I've done that. I don't believe in going to bed angry or with things left unsaid or undone. Tomorrow brings so much uncertainty that it's important to speak your mind now. None of us have been promised another day on this Earth. So, I have nothing to forgive myself for... I've tried my best to correct my mistakes in life. Some people have forgiven me. Some have not. But I've done my part. That is all.


~Jay

Something You Love About Yourself

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The one thing I ADORE about myself is my strength. I've been through so much in my life, especially at such a young age but I can truly say I am a better person now for having gone through it. Most things I don't share with other people, even close friends & family. Not serious things anyway. I'm so much like my grandmother that it's ridiculous. She was a very strong woman who cared for her entire family... Took on the burdens & responsibilities of most of her children & grandchildren. I didn't see her cry often but I'm sure she wanted to. I automatically assume the role of fixing problems for the people I care about. I can't stand to see them hurting. I rarely cry to others or complain about my situations. Two reasons for that: 1- I can give help all day long, but have a hard time accepting it... In any form. That's the prideful Leo battle i deal with daily. Lol. 2- I don't believe that complaining helps any situation. In fact, I think it hinders the solution. If you spend so much time focusing on the negative, you won't notice the positive. Anyhoo, carrying burdens on your own are TOUGH! No one should ever have to do that. I'm slowly learning to depend on loved ones for support but it's a hard battle with self. The absolute best thing about not depending on others in tough times or not having anyone to depend on is that you must FULLY RELY ON GOD. He has given me a strength that I never knew I was capable of. In the past couple years, my relationship w/God has improved so much. I know there's not anything that I can't get through. I will never truly be alone. No matter who enters & exits my life. No matter what materialistic things I do or do not possess. No matter what state of health, He is there & knows EXACTLY what He is doing even when I don't. Nothing is ever as bad as it seems at first. The world keeps turning. We all keep living & get through our days one at a time.


~Jay

Something You Hate About Yourself

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Hmmm, this is a tough one... Especially to start out with. What do I honestly HATE about myself?Hate is such a strong word... I don't hate anything about myself. I DISLIKE the fact that when I'm unsure about something, I don't even attempt it. This is a gift & curse. In every aspect of my life... Work, relationships, my music, writing.. If I feel I can't do it & do it WELL, I just won't try. I guess it started as a defense mechanism. It prevented me from the disappointment of failure. At the same time, everyone should know what failure feels like. If you don't fail, you'll never truly appreciate success. But thats ust my opinion. I feel that I've missed out on a lot of opportunities that may have worked out but I wasn't 100% sure, so I didn't do it. There have been relationships that I was unsure would work, so I just left them alone. BUT... That ended in 2011. This year, I have every intent of following every dream/wish I have. Beginning with an upcoming audition in a few weeks! I am nervous. I'm extremely nervous, actually!! But it won't hurt me if I fail & could be a dream come true if I succeed... And I plan to succeed. I will keep you all updated & I guess we will go from there... Until then, ciao!


~Jay

Quick update

As any new mother knows, "Me time" is pretty much nonexistent at this point in life. But I'm forcing myself to take some daily. My son is now 9 months!!! The time seems to have flown by. I'm sure his high school graduation will be here in the blink of an eye.... He's becoming so independent these days. Trying to walk. Talking. Not needing to be rocked to sleep; He just falls out wherever it catches him : ) It's weird having the mixed emotions of parenthood. On one hand, you're sad because they are slowly not needing to be totally dependent on you. On the other hand, you're extremely proud that they're learning the skills necessary to become a great human being <~~~~ I mean, that IS your job as a parent, right?

Anyhoo, I haven't blogged in a while but I came across another 30 day blog challenge called 30 Truths & decide to give it an honest try. So... Here goes nothing! Stay tuned!


~Jay