My baby is ONE!!

Yes, MY baby is a year old!!! This may seem insignificant to you all, but for me it marks a year that's been filled with so many milestones. I am literally in tears as I type this! I'm beyond grateful for this past year. Not only because my child is healthy & smarter than ever (some children don't make it to their 1st bdays so be grateful!!) but I'm thankful for how becoming a mother has changed me for the better. A year ago, my life was in shambles. I was at one of the lowest points in my life. I can't even begin to explain some of the things I was bearing at that time. I didn't see this pregnancy as a blessing in the beginning... I saw it as yet another addition to the problems I was already having. I am so glad that God saw differently for my life. See, God knows exactly what you need, exactly when you need it. Even when you are wondering how you'll make it through your situation... He already knows the outcome. As I was saying, becoming a mother has truly changed my entire life. Yes, it's hard. Yes, I wish I had more free time. Yes, I wish I could come & go as I please like when I had no children. But when I tell you that my son has been my little miracle, I am not exaggerating. He gave me a reason to keep going. To keep living. He was my reason to get rid of all the negativity/drama in my life. I wanted to be a better person for my son not just a better mother. This past year has been filled with so much joy!! Not just happiness, but JOY!!! No matter what has happened to upset me, make me cry, give me headaches... I see his face & it is all better. His smile is all the proof that I need to know that God is real. I have never known a love like this & I am sure that I never will. Happy birthday to my prince!! : )


~Jay