So here I was stuck between a rock & a hard place. I wanted this baby but I knew I could not afford to care for & spoil a child the way that I would want to. And there was no way I was going to be with a man just because I was pregnant... At all. My siblings kept telling me that they would help any way they could. I knew that they were being honest. But I kept rationalizing it & saying how selfish I think it is for people to knowingly bring children into this world without being able to care for them. So, I called an abortion clinic, gave them my insurance info & had them quote me a price. While they were taking care of all that, a nurse from my doctor's office called & said she made an appt with a cardiologist because I had an abnormal heartbeat. O_o I've never had heart issues before... But because I was pregnant, they didn't want to risk anything.
Fast forward to the cardiologist. They made me wear a heat monitor for a day & ran every test they could think of... I was ok so they said it must be from the pregnancy. The abortion clinic called with a price the next day & set up an appt, but first they had to clear it with my cardiologist. He said no. They wanted to monitor me for the next few months & he could not clear me for any surgery with anesthesia until after three months. My decision was pretty much made at that time. I was keeping this baby... & I was happy about it. My heart skipped a beat... Literally. Now, I just had to get on my grind & have everything in place before they got here.
~Flyymommyjay
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