Wednesday, August 17, 2011

So It Starts... Part II

... Where was I?? Oh. Positive pregnant test. Crying and all that good stuff.

Well, I broke the news to my BD over the phone. Ha. In my own defense, he was out of town for a few days & I was freaking out about what to do. There was no way I could keep that info secret until he got back. Anyhoo, long story short, we talked, argued, etc & both agreed that we couldn't keep this baby. Neither of us were ready for a child at the time. So, as much as I didn't want to have an abortion... We decided it would be best for everyone. In the meantime, I set up a prenatal appt just to confirm the pregnancy.

At my first appt, I just expected them to check everything out, get my vitals & all that jazz. I DID NOT KNOW I WAS GETTING AN ULTRASOUND! So I'm laying on the table, the doctor is showing me the baby on the screen. At the time, he was pretty much just a little pea sized blob. I'm a very nonchalant person, so seeing the image didn't really change my mind... I was still set on the abortion. BUT... then my doctor turned up the Doppler & I heard my sons heartbeat for the first time. It was very strong & sounded like a herd of horses. That did it for me. But the practical side of me still needed some convincing.


~Flyymommyjay

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